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A comic about me dur by ~Elmatto:iconElmatto:

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©2008-2009 ~Elmatto
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*****PLEASE READ*****
So...
I've been deciding whether or not to post this.
It's kind of a personal thing for me....um. yeah.
I made it several months ago....
well..should say THREW IT together SEVERAL months ago. It's pretty much one big wall of text.
I mean...I wasn't trying to make a work of art....
This image...It serves its purpose...for me. It was a therapeutic thing for ME when I drew it.
It was that, having made this thing, it's purpose was to remind me how my inhibitions made me feel when I caved to them. SO I read through it from time to time.
It's actually similar to an exercise my psychiatrist gave me when I used to see him. "Draw how things make you feel." "Hang it up somewhere so you can see it."
Kind of like rocky hangin a photo of drago in his mirror.

On the plus side of things...with the last few semesters I've been slowly crawling out of my shell. For example...talking to professors has got increasingly easy. The girl thing is still a work in progress....but I'm making progress. And thats all that matters.

Well anyways.
Read it if you want.

It's nothing special. And the drawings got all kinds of problems...but again...I threw it together for myself...not expecting I'd ever post it.
I figured I should post SOMETHING since I haven't in a while.
Schools got me on knees, sucking its dick again.

so yeah...
This isn't self pity. This was a self improvement exercise.
ah heh. I probably wont look at this for a while.
Hard enough to post.

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=kayona-kim Oct 18, 2008, 11:01:40 AM
:( gee, that really got to me.

Good work though!

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~ArbonGenre Oct 18, 2008, 11:15:42 AM
Sorta reminds me of myself...save for the fact I'm only now entering college. My heart goes out to ya'.

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*BlazeTBW Oct 18, 2008, 11:19:42 AM
I can see how it was therapeutic for you- especially how things can eat away at your insides when you realize things-

I have a bad habit on dwelling on those kinds of things, but just being able to get it out this way is one step- and whatever steps to come after are just as nerve-wracking and then some.

:thumbsup: Whether or not you see this as a step, it at least makes you aware of the life around you for what it was (or is).

This is just my opinion- but this is nothing to feel ashamed of in anyway (whether or not ya do in the first place).

Good luck in becoming who you want to be (if that makes sense).

^^; Though I do apologize in advance if any of this is taken the wrong way.

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All I can do is try...I just hope I do my best.
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~Craze-O-Matic Oct 18, 2008, 11:44:52 AM
I can relate to this pretty well. I'm still stuck pretty far behind those walls, finding solace in myself. Consequently, there's also that inner torture there when you find someone you like, but can't build up the guts to say anything. You make excuses for such a long time, that when you do finally try to say something, you realize you've missed your shot. I'm getting better at it too man, and that's all that can be done. Congrats for having the courage to show something like this to the world Matt, and you're not alone amigo.

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~Spring-the-Rabbit Oct 18, 2008, 12:16:23 PM
Aww man, now I see where you're coming from. Even after throwing out the worry of embarassing yourself by doing it on purpose, it's still sorta there. (I'm not afraid to talk to myself in public or do something retarded as long as I'm trying to achieve something.) That lingering feeling is a freakin' brick wall sometimes.

There's nothing to be ashamed of though. I mean, look at chris-chan. There's always someone worse. Except for him. Ok, he's like, a step above rapist but that's still really bad.

I'm tempted to make one of these but I don't think anyone wants to hear how emo I was in middleschool.

You sound like you're on your way in a success story. You got past the bullying shit and beefed up. You're healthy, ripped, funny and talented. Others just keep whining. c:

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~pyro-art Oct 18, 2008, 12:27:37 PM
*sniffle*
Seriously, that was really quite deep.
I think many people can relate to this, myself included. Afterall, we're mostly all in the same boat.

But I've had twice where a really nice girl was handed to me on a silver pladder, and I done nothing about it. But more can I do, I'm naturally shy.
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~Boshudolor Oct 18, 2008, 12:28:26 PM
i feel ya on this kind of thing man. hope things get better in the coming days when it comes to the ladies.

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Sure he once, did get tricked, to give his pants to a ninja prick
in his undies, now he'se pissed
So lookout!
here comes bo-shoo-do-lor!
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~blazedacat Oct 18, 2008, 12:56:26 PM
Must've been harsh. 3:

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~Alex-the-Cat Oct 18, 2008, 12:59:10 PM
It's important for us all to keep such things reminded to ourselves. It's fine if you think of it as an exercise. Don't feel embarrassed for how you feel, or why. Eventually if you work on accepting what you think and feel as 'normal', even if only to yourself, the constraints will fade; slowly but they will.

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=speedlight Oct 18, 2008, 1:40:20 PM
Matt! I love you. You are such a good person. If I could hug you, I would! Let's meet irl sometime just so I can give you a pretty sweet hug x)

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